Do I write?

So life keeps happening. All around me, new life is born, flowers bloom from soaked soil, homes repainted, churches updated, passions uncovered. Life, lived, happening.

But here I am again, it has surely been too long. I haven't written. I haven't shared. Because there is so much to share. So much to process. So much pain that I want left untouched, but life keeps happening. So maybe I keep writing. I have been nudged a few times by various people from various walks of life, to write. To share. To help put words to their hurts and pains and grief, through my own. Because we all know those times, those people who have written their hurts and pains and griefs and it cut to our core, and we FELT again. We let our pain come out, because someone dared to be honest, and it spoke. So do I write?

I think I am ready. I think I need to be ready, either way. And maybe my words with reach your heart. And maybe they will reach my own. And somehow we will trudge through this life together with words written.

Worship Wednesday: Poetry & Song

[Beautiful. inspiring. encouraging. honest. truth. Written by my best friend. Read and enjoy.]

There was a day when worry would bring fears to me at night.

I would toss and turn and wonder

“Is what I’m doing right?”

Faced with the decisions and details of the day,

I would wait

I would wonder

I would hold my breath and pray…

But no longer will I worry that somehow I’ll let Him down

That I’ll choose the wrong direction

That I’ll somehow get me lost

That I’m failing

That I’m falling

That I can’t afford the cost

I’ve been freed from that prison

And I will not step back in

The details do not matter

As long as I’m with Him

When the question comes around again

As I know it’s bound to do,

“Where, Lord, should I go?”

And “What, Lord, shall I do?”

I hope my heart remembers

I hope my mind will know

I SERVE THE LORD WITH EVERY STEP

That is where I go.

I will never live for nothing

I will never be alone

The doors I close, I won’t regret

The ones I choose will be my own

When I step in a direction

I will find a victory

Every corner that I turn, an adventure there for me

My life will not be nothing

Won’t be small

Won’t be trite

I will live for something

Lord of GLORY; Lord of might!

My life is not my own now

It is yours

You breathe in me

I’ll let Jesus be ambitious

He will find the victory!!

Left alone, I might have squandered

Might mismanage or delay

But I am not in charge now

The Lord now has the say

He will not be conquered

He will not be made a fool

The Lord my God is Yahweh!!

My life is just the tool.

"Life's Calling"

My good friend recently wrote about our understanding of our "calling" in life. I like what she had to say. 

Too often I get lost. We all get lost- on what God is calling us to do, as if it starts and ends with one action- one career- one dream. We miss the mark when we see His world with such tunnel vision. Here is what she has to say. 

"Since working as a nurse, I've wrestled with my understanding of life calling. I believe God calls us to work in places where our strengths and passions meet His needs in the world. Work, for every person, can be used for God's kingdom. I'm not sure that is as simplistic as I imagined in college. Work does not define me nor will it sustain me. Work cannot measure my worth. Work cannot fulfill me. Only God can do this. My successes and failures at work do not validate or invalidate my ministry. When I say ministry, I'm referring to the way in which God asks me to act in the world, to experience His love and transformation, and in thanks be missional, expressing His love to others and taking His Church to the world. When I look at my career to be affirming and rewarding, not only am I disappointed, but I become bitter and ungrateful. This has been my struggle. Learning to rest in God, seeking his love and affirmation."

Such a good reminder. Our ONLY fulfillment can be found in God. Praise Him for that.